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vAbby Wambach told the world some of her deepest, darkest secrets in her new memoir, Forward. The leading international goal scorer revealed the details of her struggle with alcohol and substance abuse.The impetus for being so forthright? Being arrested for driving under the influence following an evening of drinking. She said she hopes her book helps others and gives them the courage to be real with themselves and those around them. When we stand in our truth, she said, people meet us with truth.Wambach opens up about her past, what she has learned, and whats next moving forward.Q: How does it feel to have the book out there?A: It feels really good to have the book out there. Its been a labor of love for the last five months. When I agreed to do this book, the idea of what we were going to do with it was one thing. Then April 2 happened. I got the DUI and it turned into a completely different book. We were kind of scrambling at the end, doing literally last-minute edits. I actually didnt even hold the book until I went to my first book event the other day, which tells you that this really was something I wanted to put out there in a real, honest way. Im really proud of it. I think this is really going to help people. I didnt do this to sell books. I had every opportunity not to do it in this raw, honest way, but Im one of those people who, if I do something, I do it to the fullest.Q: Early in the book, you say this is not a book about soccer. What is this book about for you?A: The book is about my life. I think that I loathe the fact that I was able to play the game so well, on some level, because of the identity I carried around with me. People looked at me as an athlete, a soccer player, for so long. It actually took me until I was in Paris a couple of months ago, running in the streets, and somebody stopping me [to realize] I am a soccer player. Its not who I am, but its a part of who I am. Soccer was what I did. The value I take from this book is that we all are more than what we do. I hope this book shows that being sensitive, being in touch as a deeply feeling person is OK.Q: What do you mean when you say that you hope that this book helps people?A: Whenever we read anything, whether its memoir or fiction, were trying to relate to the subject at hand, or to the plot of the story. Your plot and your story might not have anything to do with mine, but youre going to be able to relate on some level in some way. You might know somebody that has my issues, or you might have a completely different set of issues, but youre processing them in the same way. Thats whats important. When we stand in our truth, people meet us with truth. I believe thats an indirect way to affect positive change in our world, to not be ashamed of who we are as people.Im proud of the accomplishments Ive had. I worked very hard to play soccer for as long as I did. But maybe Im most proud of writing this book. Just yesterday, I was talking to somebody on the phone and trying to give them help. Mind you, Im no professional, but thats whats going to happen. This might take on a life of its own. I can shed light on a really hard part of my life, a dark part of my life, and that will give someone else the courage to stand up and say, Me too. Im struggling and I need help.Q: What was it about the DUI, that moment, that served as a catalyst for you to reveal yourself in this way?A: Well, first of all, my mug shot speaks volumes of how the night felt and the ensuing days after the night. I got crushed in the media for a while, rightfully so, dont get me wrong. I was embarrassed, beyond embarrassed. Part of what makes my friends and family a little bit nervous about revealing so much in this book is that they felt like I was punishing myself for the DUI. The DUI was one of the best things that ever happened to me because of the things that I reveal. The DUI was a byproduct of the other problems I was having, this dark side, the secret life that I was living. The only way that I could really get well was to reveal this secret life, so that I would never make the same mistake that I did in April. And thats a promise that Im willing to keep.Q: You reveal a lot in the book beyond your history with alcohol and substance abuse. How has your family responded to learning about pain that perhaps they were not even privy to before now?A: They were scared for me for a few reasons. They spent a lot of time protecting this secret. Some of them knew the full extent, most of them didnt. The fear, in large part, was because I was in so much pain that I didnt share with them at the time. Im a very private person when it comes to my really deep, deep feelings. That gets exacerbated because of the celebrity I have due to the sport that I played. Whenever somebody is put on a pedestal, I had to keep things as private as possible. My family ... I get it. I get their fear. Its also a big reason why I have kept this stuff quiet for so long. I dont want to disappoint my family and my fans. I know there are going to be people who judge me for this, and thats OK. Im a big girl, literally, and now I feel like a strong enough woman that I can stand up for what I believe in and say what I need for myself.Q: How did it make you feel when you learned that Sydney Leroux thought you might have overdosed and died after she received a vague text that said OMG ... Abby! A: To be honest, it really altered me, it affected me a lot. When youre so stuck inside something, like I was, you dont envision that happening. Its why so many people OD and die. Its why so many people get too drunk and drive. Its why bad things happen. Now I could see that happening. When I read her interview back, I knew that was possible. [Sydney sharing] that fear helped me. It made me more aware of what I needed and of what I wanted. I needed help, and sometimes your best friends are the ones who can be so brutally honest that is actually what allows you to wake up a little bit more.It was intense, though. My god. When you get sober and you start to atone for your sins in certain ways, you need to go apologize for some of the things that have happened. I think about that. I think about the people, like Sydney, who were not just worried about my secret getting out. They were actually worried about my well-being, my health and my life. Im glad that Sydneys fear was just a fear and not a reality.Q: How has sobriety been for you?A: Interestingly enough, and everybody is different, Im just going to tell you about my experience. The DUI was such a wake-up call that I havent, for one second, looked back. Its like experiencing the worst hangover in the history of hangovers and never wanting to experience that feeling again. Thats how I feel. Im sure that will wear off at some point, and Im going to have to engage in more of a conversation to maintain my sobriety. Those are lessons and education I really want to have.Most people wait for a long period of time to talk about this stuff. They wait until they have it all under control, are saying the right things, have seen the all the therapists, and gone to rehab and everything. The truth is, I wanted to talk about this as soon as possible because I want this to be not just my healing process, but to be a part of others healing processes. This is a day-to-day thing for me. Today its going great.Q: The chapter titles of the book are labels that have been assigned to you or that youve claimed over time, and you talk throughout the book about defying labels. What does that look like for you?A: My dream in life is for people to stop classifying people as anything. Whether youre a woman or a man doesnt matter. Obviously it matters for certain reasons in terms of reproduction and all of that, but it kind of doesnt. I dont need a guy to get pregnant. I can do it with a doctor. Obviously Id need a sperm donor, but the reality for me is that labels close us all off. They make us more close-minded, and they put blinders on us because if Im in this little box, Im safe.What Im telling people is that theres no such thing as walls. You can call me whatever you want, but Im going to be me. Im going to encapsulate all of those labels at once. I want to be expandable and I want to be placed in a space the size of the planet. Thats what we all earn; its what we deserve. Its our birthright, it really is. We dont have to be put into gay or straight boxes or female or male, because were all human beings. Thats it! All the other stuff doesnt matter. I dont care what religion you believe in, Im still going to respect you. I dont care what color you are, Im going to respect you. Were going to have a conversation. I dont care who you go to sleep with. It doesnt matter. None of it matters. Labels are stupid. Period.Q: Throughout your book you talk about struggling with those labels over time. And at one point you say that you wanted someone to look at you, to see you. What does it mean to see you?A: Its funny because thats something I say, that I really want to be seen, and then you saying that made me go, Oh my gosh, I hope she doesnt see me. Im scared that somebody is going to see the depths of me, and see parts that they dont like or see nothing. I want people to see who I am, what my heart and my spirit are more than what I did on the soccer field, more than what my face looks like, and even more than what my mouth produces. I want people to see my spirit, and hopefully they find something.Q: Whats next for you?A: Im going to continue to work for ESPN, do my own personal speaking engagements, but Im really going to slow down. The idea of wanting to build a home and wanting to stay there for a considerable amount of time is really appealing to me. Sunday night chicken night and ho-hum Mondays. I actually want to know what people feel like on Mondays. I dont know what those are like for people. I want to be of the people, thats what I want next. I want to live a life thats calmer, and that doesnt involve many airplanes. I just want to be happy. I think this will make me happy.Im sure in two months Ill say, Im going crazy, I need to get out of here. But I just need to do things that make me happy, that impassion me to try and change the world. Obviously, Im impassioned by womens rights and equality, but anyone in recovery knows that I have to take care of myself first. Wholesale Fake Balenciaga .J. -- New York Giants wide receiver Victor Cruz will miss the rest of the season after having surgery on his left knee. Wholesake Fake Yeezy 350 . 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The showiest items on Calgarys lot were forwards Mike Cammalleri and Lee Stempniak. Both will be unrestricted free agents this summer. NASHVILLE, Tenn. -- Having a .500 record midway through the season might not seem like a big deal to most teams, but its a major step forward for the Tennessee Titans.The Titans (4-4) already have exceeded their win total from each of the las two seasons after rolling to a 36-22 victory over the Jacksonville Jaguars on Thursday night. The Titans finished 3-13 last year and 2-14 in 2014.I think it shows that this teams going in the right direction, Titan coach Mike Mularkey said Friday. Were doing some good things. Last nights probably the first time I can honestly say we had all three phases play well, well enough to win. The results showed it.Mularkey said running back DeMarco Murray underwent an MRI on his toe Friday but added that I dont think its too serious. Murray appeared to hurt the toe late in the second quarter but returned in the second half and ended up with 123 yards.Murray and quarterback Marcus Mariota led a Titans offense that scored on six straight possessions against Jacksonville. On defense, the Titans held Jacksonville in check before allowing two touchdowns in the last 3 + minutes after the game was decided.I think were trying to show people were a different team this year, wide receiver Rishard Matthew said. Were definitely trying to win the division.First they need to play better within the division. The game Thursday is the Titans first AFC South victory after they already had lost at Houston and at home against Indianapolis.But theyre only a half-game behind AFC South leader Houston (4-3). That represents major progress for a franchise that hasnt reached the playoffs since 2008.Tennessees record could be even better if it hadnt let a couple more potential wins slip away.The Titans blew a 10-0 halftime lead in a season-opening 25-16 home loss to Minnesota. They fell 34-26 to Indianapolis at home on Sunday by allowing a go-ahead touchdowwn with less than two minutes remaining.ddddddddddddWeve had chances to win all the games weve been in, Mularkey said. The losses have come down to the final minutes of the fourth quarter. Weve had chances. Its things weve done that have prevented us from getting over the hump to win those games. Yeah, our record could be better, but you could say that about a lot of teams in this league.Tennessee is benefiting from its offseason efforts to upgrade the rushing attack by acquiring Murray and drafting offensive tackle Jack Conklin in the first round and Heisman Trophy-winning running back Derrick Henry in the second round.The Titans average 152.3 yards rushing per game to rank third in the NFL, behind only Dallas and Buffalo. DeMarco Murray has rushed for 756 yards -- already exceeding his 215 total of 633 with Philadelphia.Mularkey believes that ground attack can be even more productive.When you watch the tape, theres a lot of yards still, to me, that were leaving out there, Mularkey said.Five of the Titans last eight games are on the road -- starting with a Nov. 6 trip to San Diego -- but that might not be such a bad thing. Tennessee is 2-1 on the road and only 2/3 at home this season.Mularkey concedes that we really havent accomplished anything just yet with the season halfway over, but he likes his teams approach. After losing three of their first four games, the Titans have won three of their last four.Im really proud of this football team, Mularkey said. I really enjoy being around this team. They care about each other. I care about them. Its important to them. They care about having each others backs. I think its really important to them, and it shows up on Sundays.---AP NFL website: www.pro32.ap.org and www.twitter.com/AP-NFL ' ' '